Elf@Wine

Im back from outing for a few hours. as the bus approaching my hometown, a sense of belonging was felt. this is the moment i’ve been waiting for i.e to be able to blog again. 2 weeks across the causeway, time flew. never knew that the old chair which i use to surf the net can be so cosy. life is kind of boring over there. the same routine everyday. but everyday, there’s something new for me to learn and to experience. thats the thing i enjoyed the most during these weeks over there. able to live everyday to the fullest. no more lazing and slacking doing nothing. well, i’m able to celebrate the best christmas eve i’ve ever had over there. millions of people, regardless of race, get together and enjoy the joyful ambience. everyone was spraying snow (soap bubbles)..to friends, to strangers, as if we were all friends for that moment. we get so wet and dirty due to the soap war. everyone taste it. it was fun. well, back here, miss my friends, family, pc and guitar the most. i had a lot of things to write before i get to blog but when i could do so, i have nothing much to write. so i’ll make it short and sweet, im fine over there although sometimes i do feel boring and lonely over there but thats my lesson of life and im trying my best to embrace and experience it to the fullest so that i could be a better person. will be meeting my friends later before going back again. keep in touch guys and i hope i could write more the next time. merry xmas and happy new year!

Thats what im going to do tomorrow and hopefully for a period of time. im breaking the dormancy, getting out of my town for more exposure, experiencing life, making new friends and challenge myself. on my first try, im going to hunt in a metropolis. small but dense. after 18 years of spoon fed life, i cant be more ebullient than having a chance to survive on my own. its time for me to train myself physically and mentally. life ahead may be smooth sailing or conversely hard and tough. nothing beats me beside mosquitoes..haha..i detest them the most. hopefully i can carve something out on my own for this coming period of time before i get myself ready for uni. maybe its good to experience something new, learn a trick or two before stepping into uni.sometimes i wonder, where the heck did i get the courage from to just pick a bag and wave goodbye to my testa, to embrace life. maybe its the rush of giberelins- the drive of being independent and the dont-care-lar spirit that allows me to buck up and go.maybe i should give myself an accolade. sound kiddish due to all these nonsense just because i am going somewhere else for a period of time on my own. its my first time, so i tend to blabber more. its not as serious as what i’ve written but these are the words from the bottom of my ileum..hehe..heart would be a proper word i think. last blog till i could find net connection over there.

Posting two journals at the same time shows that im really bored. after a year of busy life, a few months of hectic way of living, im still trying to adapt a drastic change in my life. 2 weeks ago, im still struggling with books, notes and exam pressure. but the moment it end, it ends abruptly. its nice when i dont have to worry anything about my studies for the time being and some would say i can enjoy life because school reopening soon for those who are still enjoying their school life. but i dont think so. i would say life without pressure is meaningless. at times when i have nothing to worry about, i tend to be more restless and unhappy. trying to get a job here but doesnt seem successful at all. maybe its time for me to break out of the dormancy of my sweet hometown and go somewhere else to experience life. thats what i intend to do. getting a job elsewhere and learn to be independent. after 18 years of extensive care and nicely planned daily activities i.e school, i think its time to really went all out to try something new. for someone who’s as restless and playful as me, 2 weeks of idling and slacking is long enough and im getting bored with it. some of my friend would suggest to go for a holiday and let their hair down after burrying in books for such a long time but to me, going for holiday is like a temporary adrenalin rush while having a roller coaster ride. the excitement is temporary and when everything is over, the devil is back. hehe. i have around 6/7 months to go before any admission to uni. but just 2 weeks and i cant stand it anymore. should i just buck up and get out from this hometown of mine and experience life outside while i still can before attaching to any offer or whatever stuff or stay at home and enjoy SPHEW (Sleeping-Playing-Hanging out-Eating-Watching)? but i have to face some serious consequences, i.e. getting rounder in shape. maybe its really time for me to flee, cabutz. alvin, life is great…dont just SPHEW…u’ll regret..

I think most of my friends know im not musically inclined. i dont have fingers that plays piano or a nice vocal cord but im simply a music lover. but my interest in music doesnt really reflect my actual age. i think most of my peers are fans of rock bands or simply pop singer. conversely, im a fan of 92.2(light & easy). haha..seems proud of myself. yup. thats the genre of my choice. oldies, country and ballad. in fact, i simply love music performed by Tim Janis, Lorie Line, Mary Beth Carlson, Richard Clayderman, Kenny G and Steve Middleton. they dont sing or yell with a mic but they are able to carry the feelings of song superbly. their work are simply soothing and rejuvenating. besides these non singing piece of work, i do like those who sing. when it comes to this, it definitely have to be Josh Groban, Sir Elton John and Il Divo. they sound really great. i mean it. grab their album if i dont sound convincing enough. im not their promoter or paid to advertise for them but i think only these are music in my perception. nowadays, music store here never bored with crazy frog, techno or dance track. i would say these are noise more than music to me. no offense. hehe. music should be an element which relaxes our mind and not something which blast off our ear drum. country is another favourite genre of mine. from martina mcbride, rascall flats, kenny loggins till the newly crowned AI carrie underwood, i think they popularise country music without tarnishing the uniqueness in it. well, till here some might say im a western music lover but in fact im one of the non-malays who are also into local music trend. i would say misha omar, ning baizura, siti nurhaliza and jaclyn victor are the 1 to be in our local music industry. maybe only siti manage to break into the international market but there are still excellent performer here in Malaysia. now to chinese music industry, my mother tongue. in fact, im not familiar with chinese music but i know there are some good ones. the gist of it is that, no matter what language it is, as long as it carries the actual meaning of MUSIC and not CISUM, i bet its good. now i know why ABBA sang ‘Thank You For The Music’……..