Elf@Wine

Its 5.18am. Im not an early bird. its just that i did not sleep. well, this has been my routine for a few days, due to exams. not the last minute preparation. just that sleeping early before exams makes me feel insecure. as if i havent been studying. so, i’ll just pump whatever its in the book or the notes even its a minute left before exams. things are not going smoothly. im not sailing through. lots of downs than ups. just had my physiology assessment yesterday. i have no idea how well i did because most of the time it turns out to be the worse. anyway, most probably, the results will be out in less than 3 hours time. just keep my finger crossed. i have tried my best. thats it. staying up tonight is for some tutorials and some revision. we are all too focused on exams which actually causes us to neglect the norm lecture and notes. so, no choice, have to do some revision.

sometimes i am not so sure whether i am eligible enough to take up tough courses which are meant for geniuses. disgraceful marks on an exam sheets with my name written on it, im starting to wonder. at this point of time, its maybe not about how hard you work. everyone is working hard. the determining factor is how smart you are. when you sow in tears, you’ll reap in joy. im doubting this proverb.

everyone is working hard. everyone is serious bout being successful in his or her field of work or studies. people around me are breaking down. smiley faces getting lesser and lesser. same to me. smilling less, less haha session. i spent more time in deep thought. thinking whats the best plan or strategies to overcome all these. if im not born to be intelligent, the only way to work things out is to be extra hardworking. i think thats the best and im working hard on that. at this point of time, is passing sufficient or its a must to score?

will be going back to bp this thursday for a short break. but finals coming up right after depa and raya. meeting up some friends i think. but basically, i want a rest so that i am all out for my finals. more results releasing these last few days of 1st sem. im prepared for the worse but i am hoping for the best. i think i flung my papers. sigh.. havent been sleeping well for a very long time. i need a good sleep.

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